With only a month left in my contract with UNDP Nepal my boss pointed
out to me that I had barely taken any of my allotted leave time. After one
particularly frustrating meeting I marched directly into Sean’s cubicle and
proclaimed that I would go trekking with him. Hell, I had been in Nepal a year
and never gone trekking! It was time. Work wasn’t so urgent after all. I
basically left all of the planning to Sean – he’s a better planner, and his
contract was over before mine, so he had more time to do it. After our year in
Nepal together, I trust him enough to blindly follow him into the mountain
wilderness. What could go wrong?
Just kidding. I didn’t follow completely blindly, and I did help (by
proxy) in some ways. I have a very good friend, Lama,
who’s a trekking guide here, and runs his own freelance trekking business: LaMa Walks. He’s a very good guide, and I
would have gone for my first trek in Nepal with him, had he been available.
Instead, we settled for having him approve our planned route before he left the
city for a mountaineering course. The original plan was a walk from Sundarijal,
a village at the edge of the city, straight through the Shivapuri National
Park, up into Langtang National Park, past holy, glacial Lake Gosaikunda, down
into the Langtang Valley, to the end of the Valley and up a small peak at the
end Tserko Ri (4984m). Lama was mostly fine with our plan, but told us he was
worried about us ascending too rapidly between our last stop in the Langtang
Valley and the Tserko Ri peak; however, if we acclimatized properly and had no
problems over the 4600m mountain pass near Lake Gosaikunda, then we should be
okay. We were warned to be careful at these two points.
In the end Sean even recruited another friend of ours: Quintin, who had
also been working for UN for over a year was finished his contract and wanted
to do a final trek. So, equipped with clothes, cameras, coffee and trekking
permits, the three off us set out early Saturday morning to begin our
adventure. I took the notebook that Sean gave me for Christmas and wrote a
little bit at the end of each day. I thought the best way to recount the events
of the trek would be to transcribe the contents of those entries here, along
with a few photos from along the route.
Trek Day 1: Saturday, June
28, 2014
Sundarijal, 1462m to
Chipling 2170m
Stopped in Chipling for the night after about seven hours of walking. Guesthouse
is absolutely shocking…[cold] bucket shower, wooden plank bed in a dusty room
wallpapered with peelings newsprint from 2011. All located in a mud hut…beside
which they are currently barbequing a goat they just beheaded…off to a great
start!
* * *
A good hard walk today…so so so so so many stairs! I consider myself to
be in good shape, but that was a long day of walking. I am completely
exhausted. I also managed to do something painful to something on the inside of
my left ankle this morning. No idea what, but it hurts a lot and walking is not
so good. Hoping it leaves as quickly as it came on, overnight.
Trek Day 2: Sunday, June 29, 2014
Chipling, 2170m to
Mangangoth, 3220m
Stopped for the night in Mangangoth, at a much nicer guesthouse than last night. Still only bucket shower,
but they heated the water and had an indoor toilet to clean ourselves in…as
opposed to an open field beside 15 men and boys roasting a goat, like last
night. I did some interesting bucket yoga to get my head into the water. Hips
and shoulders getting sore and bruised from my bag, and my ankle is definitely messed
up…not sure what will happen over the next couple of days. Will see what
tomorrow brings.
Hard and steep climb today over wet, slippery, loose stones. At least
it’s one more thing we don’t have to do tomorrow though. Weather is getting
much chillier too. Spent most of the day walking through clouds, but when the
sun did shine it was pretty spectacular – deep, lush valleys, and we even
managed to see the real mountains for a few minutes this morning. Another
positive is that we haven’t had much rain to contend with – a bit of wet
mistiness every so often, but nothing too heavy. We never got drenched, not
even in sweat, unlike yesterday. Now we’re just sitting in the dining room in
front of the fire that’s warming my back, as well as drying out damp clothes
while waiting for my daal bhat. Life = not so bad. :)
Trek Day 3: Monday, June 30, 2014
Mangangoth, 3220m to Gopte,
3440m
Noon: stuck in a rainstorm in Gopte. Everything soaked. The rain cover I
bought for my bag has not proved itself to be the most valuable investment
ever. I officially have to dry pants. We want to make it on to Phedi today, but
we’ll need a drastic change in weather to see that happen (and soon). It’s
apparently a three-hour walk, and we’ve been warned by two people not to go in
the rain. Apparently there are many streams that cross the path and in heavy
rain they can become violent and have washed people away in the past. So for
now we’re going to have some lunch, wait a bit and see what happens. If it
doesn’t stop by 2:00ish I think we’re stuck here for the night. This morning’s
walk was great though. Beautiful trail. Not too difficult a climb.
* * *
Now wearing a pair of extra boxers of Quintin’s (unworn)…a bit weird,
but the only dry thing. Rain is just getting harder. Seen Desmond pissed. I’m
feeling about the same.
With every day comes a new reason why we won’t make it where we
originally planned to (Tserko Ri). Not enough time, short on money, messed up
ankle, and now: rain delays. A part of me just wants to get through this as
quickly as possible so I can get this ankle checked out. I think I may have
sprained it at this point. Also, I have started to reason with myself that if I
get back to Kathmandu earlier than expected it just means more time I can use
to try and network myself into a job – also worthwhile at this point.
If I have a job I can come back and trek again… hopefully with a fully
functioning body.
* * *
2:00pm: Rain still going strong. We’re officially here for the night.
The guy at the guest house is young…super annoying, and seemingly completely
incompetent. Sean is directing/supervising his attempts to start a fire…and
chop wood. We tore a few pages out of my notebook to use a kindling, then, as
we were lighting them and placing then under logs the guy says: “I have idea.”
Wanders off, returns with a small pot of gas and throw it in…safety always:
dead last here in Nepal. Sean has now chopped some proper kindling with a big
kukri knife and the fire seems to be catching. Hopefully: dry things to soon
follow.
* * *
So basically we’re perched on the face of a large, rocky mountain,
nothing but sheer up and sheer down on either side, waiting for torrential rains
to let up. At least it’s pretty. When the mist lifts we can see massive
waterfalls gushing from the side of the slope just above us. I’ve tried to
capture it in a photo, but I can’t do the scene any true justice.
* * *
4:00pm: Drying is going only so-so. I managed to melt the back of Sean’s
long-sleeved, Marmot trekking shirt. Not on a great run after burning two pairs
of my own socks on last night’s fire. Quintin’s things are next…
Contemplated trying to dry the map by the fire for a split second…then
decided we really needed the map.
It’s times like these though that I am thankful for Sean and his
survival skills as well as his domestic training. He is much more pro at this
fire drying business thing than I am. He’s totally channelling Super Dad right
now…Super Wilderness Dad. I put my shoes by the fire to dry and when I turned
around to check on them he had removed the liners and repositioned them to dry
better. Wilderness Dad to the rescue!
He does not seem to like this new name…
Trek Day 4: Tuesday, July 1,
2014
Gopte, 3440m to Gosaikunda,
4380m
Happy Canada Day! I feel like I want to die. What a brutal day. From
Gopte early this morning we made it to Gosaikunda by 2:00pm – over a 4610m
mountain pass…I have such a raging headache and feel so nauseous that it could
very well be the day after Canada Day and I could be madly hungover. I feel
like I might vomit. I felt that way most of the climb up to the pass. I almost
wanted to cry going up that hill today. After tea at Phedi (3700m): 1000m
straight up. So many times I
didn’t think I could keep going. I didn’t want to. My throat was bone dry, my
lungs were burning, my head was pounding, my stomach was angry and seriously
contemplating rebellion, my ankle was throbbing and unstable and I was dizzy,
picking my way up a steep slope of wet, slippery, loose stones. I thought it
would go away once we came down…so far: no such luck.
Had a terrible sleep last night too. Second night in a row. The first
night I had a bit of an upset stomach and a hard time sleeping. Last night I
drifted in and out of sleep battling intense nausea, a pounding headache and
feeling short of breath. It was so weird. We weren’t even up that high…and it
got better the closer morning came. The night was miserable though. This morning
I woke up and still didn’t feel wonderful, but I was determined to just make it
through today – the toughest day. We had a plan to order breakfast from a guesthouse
in Phedi, owned by the brother of the guy whose place we stayed last night in,
and eat it when we arrived there at 9:00am, after departing Gopte at 6:00am. However,
of course…that didn’t work out so well when he came into the dining room at
about 6:00am with our entire breakfast order…20 minutes after I asked him for
water that he still hadn’t gotten. With my head pounding I almost snapped. So
we asked him to pack it. This entailed him rifling through a magazine rack for
what felt like hours (but in reality was probably about five minutes) until he
found an old dusty book, tore a few pages out of it and proceeded to wrap it
around our food…not very effectively, I might add. I gave Sean a startled look,
but he just laughed it off, so I didn’t say anything. Still no fucking water!
Anyway…we packed our food, finally got some damn water, and then ate and
had tea at his brother’s place in Phedi when we arrived…refuelling before
tackling Laurabina Pass (4610m). Now that we’re in Gosaikunda I’m eating some
garlic soup for lunch…a natural method of combating altitude sickness…and
vampires.
5:00pm: I still have a throbbing headache, and feel a bit like I need to
barf. I’m not really hungry, but feel I should eat, so I ordered my nightly
daal bhat anyway. Sean has finally worn me down on taking the preventative dose
of Diamox, and anti-altitude sickness drug. I think I must just have a bit of
flu or something from getting a chill yesterday, but I’ve relented nonetheless,
mostly because we’re making plans to try and climb a nearby peak tomorrow (Surya,
5125m), and I don’t want to end up really
sick. Also, considering my ankle is still all messed up, it’s probably wise
if at least some part of me functions.
I had really wanted to avoid using any drugs for this. Makes me feel a
bit weak…considering we’re really not going all that high (for Nepal). And who
knows…it’s probably just a flu/cold from getting drenched yesterday. But, I
guess it’s better safe than sorry. I really wish I had Lama with me today. He
would know what to do. The rest of us are really just playing a guessing game.
I don’t think I’ll do this again without a guide. There are really so many ways
things could have been easier…food, lodging, language, important sites…the list
goes on.
* * *
7:00pm: I’m having an internal battle with myself. My headache is not
going away. If anything: it’s just getting stronger. And even though I managed
to eat, that also didn’t make me feel any better. Still nauseous. I have no
idea what’s going on. It’s the most frustrating thing. I feel terrible, but I
don’t know why. No one gets sick from altitude this low! Especially considering
this started at barely more than 3000m. I must
just be regularly sick. But, on the other hand, if it is altitude then
it could be serious, and I really do not want to end up a name on a stone along
the path with a scarf wrapped around it, like all the other graves we have seen
along the way. So I don’t want to die – obviously; but I also don’t want to be
that person who ruins everyone’s vacation by being a drama queen about catching
a cold! What to do...
I just wish I knew what I was supposed to be feeling, what’s
normal, what all these different symptoms add up to…but I really only have a
rudimentary understanding of altitude sickness. I guess I just never considered
that we could face this problem on such a simple, straightforward trek. But
none of us really know anything; we’re all just making guesses, and
assumptions, and assuming it’s not the worst case scenario. I don’t want
to, but I can’t silence the little voice in the back of my head that keeps
asking me: “what if it is the worst case scenario?” If we had a guide,
our guide would know.
* * *
I talked to the guys about my internal battle. Quintin borrowed the
Lonely Planet of some French guys who are also staying in our guesthouse and
used the Langtang-Gosaikunda section to plot out our route, with altitudes, so
far. When we arrived today at 2:00pm we had enough time to go on, but it was
raining, I felt like I was ready to collapse, and our map listed the altitude
of Lake Gosaikunda at 3480m. Considering how I was feeling, I told the guys I
would prefer to stay here rather than at the next town, Laurabina, 3900m. The
lower the better, just in case it was the altitude making me feel so
terrible. According to Lonely Planet, however, Gosaikunda isn’t at 3480m, it’s
at 4380m – meaning that we’re about 1000m higher than we were last night, and
have officially blown our safe climbing and resting heights right out of the
water. But what can we do about it now? It’s already dark, so moving on isn’t a
safe option. We’ve decided to wait and see what the morning brings. They tell
me to wake them up, at any time, if things get worse throughout the night –
like if I start vomiting, develop new symptoms, or can’t sleep at all. It’s the
only thing we really can do right now: play it by ear.
* * *
Lama would have a coronary if he were reading this. He would tell me to
get straight down the mountain straight away. Maybe that’s the right answer. I
said I wished he were here; maybe channelling his opinion is good enough for
now. Maybe it will have to be. For now I’ll have wait and see what the morning,
and tonight, bring.
Day 9: Sunday, July 6,
2014
Kathmandu, 1400m
Not so much trekking anymore...things went downhill very quickly after
that last entry. Literally! And figuratively. Allow me to explain:
I woke up and it was still dark. Head pounding just as bad or worse than
earlier. Laboured breathing. Suppressing the urge to vomit. Shivering under
three blankets, even though my face felt hot against my hand. Impossible to get
back to sleep. I lay in bed for a long time, maybe an hour, waiting for
morning. I knew that Sean would knock on my door at 5:15am, and I would just
have to tell him that I was sorry, but I couldn’t make it on today, that I
would have to go down. I thought 5:15 couldn’t possibly be very far away.
Finally, when the night and the pain felt so relentless that I needed to
know how close the relief of morning was, I turned on my phone (I had been
trying to save the 5% remaining battery). It was 10:45pm.
I did not want to wake them. I sat cross-legged on my bed for several minutes, staring at
the diving wall between our rooms, trying to figure out what to do. I really
did not want to wake them, but I didn’t know what else to do, and I was
starting to get scared. I knew I wasn’t going to make it to the morning in the
status quo.
“Guys...” I tried calling softly through the wall. No sign of movement.
“Guys,” I ventured a little more loudly. Rolling over. No response. I
contemplated for a few more minutes and then leaned over the bed and knocked on
the wall. Definite movement this time.
“Guys?”
“Yeah?”
“I think I have a problem.” A minute of rustling around as they made
their way out of sleeping bags and into shoes later and both Sean and Quintin
appeared in my room, sitting on the second bed, opposite me.
Wilderness Dad and Mom did their assessment of the situation. Sean
confirmed that I had a fever while Quintin checked my pulse and we all discussed
what to do. Often when altitude sickness is suspected a helicopter is called in
order to rapidly get the affected person to treatment in Kathmandu. In our
case, that wasn’t an option. There was no cell phone reception, there was no
land line, and according to Sean who had stayed up later the night before
discussing possible options if I didn’t get any better with the owner of the
guesthouse: the closest phone was a two hour walk away. Even if calling was an
option, the thick fog coating the hills around us would have made landing a helicopter
in the area impossible until morning. After some discussion Quintin and Sean
decided I should take another half tablet of Diamox and Quintin mixed me up a
litre of water with oral rehydration salts. I was in no state to question
anything, even though I knew that none of us really knew what we were doing.
They told me to drink the water and see how I felt in 45 minutes.
Within 30 minutes I started coughing. But nothing else got any better.
When I went to bed a few hours earlier I didn’t have a fever, now I did; when I
woke up I didn’t have a cough, now I did. Ailments just seemed to be multiplying.
When Sean and Quintin came back our conversation went something like this:
Quintin: “Any change?”
Me: “No.”
Sean: “Okay, well
considering you’re coughing now, you probably do just have a cold or flu, but
the altitude certainly isn’t helping. So we need to eliminate the altitude
factor as soon as possible.”
Me: “We still can’t
go anywhere until it’s daylight though. It’s even less safe to be wandering
around in the dark at altitude, not knowing where we’re going.”
Sean: “I already
talked to the owner about this being a possibility. He’s not thrilled with the
idea, but he’s agreed to guide us down to the next town at 3500m, about three
hours walk from here.”
Me: “Okay. Are you
sure?” They confirmed that they both thought it was the best option. “Then
let’s get ready.” They had both already packed. Sean took all of the heavy
things that I had off my bed to jam into his own bag, leaving me with just a
sleeping bag and a few items of clothing. The boys went and woke up the old man
who owned the lodge while I got dressed in my warm clothes and full winter
jacket.
At 1:00am on July 2, while a light snow fell softly, crystallizing the
grass along the path, we walked out of Gosaikunda. It was eerie. I could hear water running, and I knew the
giant mountains were all around us, but everything was black. I couldn’t see
anything except what was directly in front of me, illuminated by my headlamp.
It was clear that the trail dropped off abruptly, falling away for who knows
how far into who knows what. All I knew is that there was a mountain on one
side and a drop into nothingness on the other. I tried to walk straight. According
to Sean, who stuck close behind me, I was only partially successful.
About 15 to 20 minutes after we set out we had to start climbing. The
stairs up to the pass on the opposite side of the lake were not too
challenging, or too long, compared to what we had traversed almost every other
day of the trek; but, at that moment, for me, they became the straw that broke
the camel’s back. When we reached the top I had to stop, I was practically
gulping air, and when I tried to drink some water to sooth my dry throat I
started to throw up. I had been trying so hard, for so long, to not throw up,
and I just couldn’t stop it anymore. Until that moment I had been comforting
myself with the fact that at least I hadn’t thrown up yet – it couldn’t be that
bad if I hadn’t thrown up. Which was stupid – not throwing up because you’re
using every bit of energy you have to stop yourself from throwing up does not
mean you’re not dangerously ill.
Sean asked if I wanted to rest, but I didn’t. After that I was
officially scared about what the hell what happening to me, and about how much
time I had to get it fixed. I just wanted to get the hell out of there as
quickly as possible, and get as far down as possible. I kept throwing up as we
walked down, a few more times. Sean held me up by my bag so that I didn’t lose
my balance and fall. But besides those quick pauses we didn’t stop walking. It
was a bit like a drive-by vomit situation.
Mercifully, the rest of the walk predominantly a gentle downhill, and
didn’t take much physical exertion. Regardless, after 45 minutes Quintin
insisted on carrying my bag to make it quicker and easier for me. Moving
forward himself in the dark with his own bag on his back and my back on his
front, blocking his view of his feet on the path.
(For obvious reasons there are no photos of this part of the trek)
By 3:00am we had reached Cholangpati (3584m). The old man guiding us
made it very clear that he did not want continue any further, and woke up the
owners of one of the two guest houses in town. They opened up and let us in.
Sean and Quintin discussed trying to get even lower, but after consulting the
map they realized that the next town was at least an hour away, we would only
lose an extra 200m by getting there, and the path was much more complicated.
Without a guide any longer, it made more sense to wait for daylight.
At least this place had a phone. Sean used it to call the United Nations
Security Focal Point, Roshan, to get his advice and make some arrangements for
our next steps. I didn’t feel any better, but Quintin suggested that I should
lie down and try to rest. The woman who owned the lodge showed me to a room and
gave me a big blanket. I only took my shoes off, lying down on the bed still
zipped up in my winter jacket and wearing my wool hat. Despite being tired, I
was afraid of closing my eyes...just in case I didn’t open them again. Maybe it
was an irrational fear to have, but like everything: it came from all the
things I didn’t know. I knew that altitude sickness could be fatal. I knew that
the symptoms I had had come on quickly. But I didn’t know what exactly I was suffering
from. I knew that I probably needed to get to a hospital, and that there was a
reason why helicopters were the first choice to get there under normal circumstances.
I didn’t know how much time I had to get there, and I didn’t know what the
consequences of not getting there quickly enough could be.
In the end, sleep won out for at least a couple of hours. When I woke up
Sean was crashed out in his sleeping bag on the bed beside mine – probably to
monitor me in case things got any worse. He had worked out a plan with Roshan a
few hours earlier while I slept. We would have to keep walking out to Dhunche,
the nearest city, where the road finally meets the path, and he would have an ambulance
waiting there to take us back to Kathmandu. There was no vehicular access any
closer than Dhunche, which Quintin estimated to be about 4 hours away, given
our average walking pace. Roshan suggested that if I couldn’t walk there was a
military post close by and he could have some of the army guys come and carry
me down to Dhunche; however, I was fairly convinced that being bounced along on
someone’s back down a steep, rocky trail would definitely make me feel
worse than walking, so we politely declined that offer.
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Can you see the path? Look for the backpack. |
We left Cholangpati at 7:00am, descending basically straight down 1500m
along a very steep path. Knees? Nah! Those are useless now. Of course, at the
very last minute, there was also some precarious uphill, over a set of uneven
stairs carved into a rock face – because why not? Finally, at 11:30am we came
out on a road navigable by a four wheeled vehicle. The ambulance met us not far
from that point. We loaded our bags and ourselves into it and decided to skip
the Dhunche hospital and head straight for Kathmandu. I assumed that if I was
still alive at this point, that I could probably survive another few hours. The
wisdom of that decision was confirmed when we drove past the Rasuwa District
Health Post – basically a small tin shack. Sean made my sleeping bag a pillow
and I laid down in the back of the ambulance, drifting in and out of consciousness
for the next few hours.
Now when I say “ambulance” I know the image that springs into your mind
is one of a properly medically equipped vehicle with trained professionals. But
do not let the cross-cultural homonym fool you. That is not what is meant by
ambulance here in Nepal. Here, ambulance means 30 year old Mahindra jeep with a
bed in the back driven by a teenager who likes to play with the siren for fun,
stops to chat with a number of his buddies along the way and tries to take
pictures of you on his cell phone camera. It’s basically just a slightly more
expensive private vehicle…that gets you noticed right away when you pull up to
the hospital, which in this case was what made it all worth it.
* * *
At Norvic International Hospital I was taken directly to a bed in
emergency. Zero wait time. They didn’t even waste time ensuring I was
registered first. They asked if I had medical insurance, but didn’t bother with
the details until later that evening. I gave Sean my wallet as I got out of the
ambulance and the guys took care of paying the driver and having him provide a receipt,
so that I could claim the costs through insurance (considering that he had to
write out this receipt by hand, in my notebook, in Nepali, I would say the
chances of me getting any money back for that are pretty much non-existent). By
the time Sean and Quintin got everything sorted outside and found me in
Emergency I had already talked to a couple of doctors, they had checked all my
vitals, given me a chest x-ray, had me fill in a form to get me registered and
provided a diagnosis. Dr. Pande, an older man who would become my regular
doctor during my stay, told me that was suffering from the early symptoms of high altitude pulmonary edema (HAPE), an
advanced form of altitude sickness. He justified our decision to walk down the mountain
in the middle of the night by telling me that it was a very good thing I came
down, and that if I had not done so I would have ended up with full blown HAPE
and HACE (high
altitude cerebral edema).
* * *
After quickly strategizing how we would stay in touch, Sean and Quintin
took my things home as they were shooed out by a nurse who needed to give me an
ECG and stick me with an IV. Later that evening when my roommate Alex and
friend Sibylle showed up with the change of clothes and charged cell phone I
had requested Sean ask them to bring, I was resting in a private room with a
bag of fluids dripping into my arm.
Alex and Sibylle stayed for a couple of hours, and other friends (Dan
and Nikola) came to visit as well. I slept early, and by the following day I
was feeling much better – almost back to my pre-trekking self. I had an appetite
again – Sean brought me breakfast and a latte from the cafĂ© downstairs in the
morning. When Alex and Sibylle came for their daily visit Dr. Pande was there
and said he would discharge me in the morning. As I went to sleep that night
there was just a faint, dull ache in my skull.
Of course, nothing can be that simple. At 3:00am I was woken up by
searing pain in my head. The nurses gave me an Asprin. Obviously…that did
nothing, and I couldn’t sleep. At 6:00am: another Asprin. Still nothing. When
Dr. Pande came in at 8:00am he was shocked at the difference from the previous
night. A CT scan, examination by a neurologist, numerous (and various) pain
killers and another night in the hospital later and the pain persisted; the
diagnosis was that I had a migraine. Three different doctors told me that this
was not uncommon as a sort of after-effect of the altitude, it could be brought
on by stress, anxiety or other strong emotions. There is no set prognosis for
how long it might last. As with altitude sickness, it varies from one person to
the next. Despite the fact that they wanted to keep me admitted for longer, I
insisted that if there was no risk of anything more severe and they were just
going to treat me with oral medication that I would be more comfortable at
home. I was discharged Saturday morning “on request” and Sibylle came to the
hospital to collect me and my things and take me home with codeine infused
analgesics, anti-anxiety drugs, anti-nauseants and strict orders for two days
of bed rest.
Alex and Sibylle acted as wonderful nurses over the next couple of days,
attending to me through more headaches, fever and a little extra vomiting
thrown in for good measure. Finally, four days after returning from what was (in
the end) about a four day trek, I am starting to feel like a normal human being
again. I still have a headache, but it is allowing itself to be medically
controlled fairly effectively.
People keep saying things to me like: “Ahhh wow, that’s a really bad
experience. At least you’ll know more for next time now!” And I keep thinking:
Next time? What next time? I think my enjoyment of mountains from now on will
be limited to what I know: getting a chair lift to take you up to the top at a
safe altitude and skiing down!
When I look back now over what happened, and what I wrote up there I
realize that I was crazy to think it could have been anything other than the
altitude making me sick. But I guess that’s why hindsight is always 20/20. At
the time I really didn’t think it could be the culprit, considering how low we
were when I started feeling sick. It seemed impossible. I also didn’t want to
be overly dramatic and ruin everyone’s trek if it was just a bit of the flu.
But no matter how I think about it – as it was happening, and now, in
retrospect – it always comes right back to the same thing: we should have had a
guide.
The worst part about everything that happened was not being sick, it was
being scared, and completely in the dark about what was going on. It was
realizing that I might be playing a guessing game with my own existence. That
was when I recognized that having a guide wasn’t about bringing someone with
you to show you what path to walk up; it was about bringing someone with you
that you could trust to make a potentially critical decision about your life.
When everything goes well you don’t think about these things. But things
don’t always go well, and when they don’t you don’t want to be playing WebMD
based on the little you can remember from pre-trekking reading.
Just having a guide doesn’t necessarily check those boxes though. When
you hire a guide you should go with one that has a good reputation or has been
recommended to you, if possible. Like I said: it should be someone that you
feel you can basically trust your life to.
To be perfectly clear: Sean and Quintin were amazing! They did everything they possibly could to help
me, and I will never be able to thank them enough for that. But, in the future,
if I ever do trek again, there’s at least
one more person that I’m going to make sure is with me.